Norris & Brenna's Adventure: February 2013

So life is good. Tate is getting older and it is getting a little better. I wanted to write a little about some post-pregnancy things that were a surprise to me. First off having a baby was A LOT harder then i imagined even with an epidural and second off I seriously want to shave my head at times b/c i am so sick of my hair falling out! IT IS EVERYWHERE! I try hard to brush my hair and keep it off the ground but nope! Its all over me, Tate, Tate's blankets, the bathroom, the kitchen, our bed, my pillow, the carpet! Seriously it needs to stop.

I wasnt expecting to hold on to so much weight after pregnancy too. Everyone said oh you are planning on breastfeeding oh good it will melt off. Well people nope, not here! Still have a good amount of weight to lose. I know as soon as I hit the gym again it will help but doing little stuff on my own with workout videos and walks/ runs arent cutting it. I dont eat like a pig either. I dont say oh i am breastfeeding i can eat whatever i want. I feel i am careful and i have started to cut out sweets. It probably was the holidays to many sweets laying around.

Also I didnt expect for Tate to be so attached to me. It is good dont get me wrong but it makes it hard to leave him b/c sometimes he is ok and other times he only wants me. Also I feel bad for Norris too. He just wants Tate to love and play with him like he does to me but nope. Sometimes he is ok and other times he just looks for me.

I had No Idea how hard breastfeeding would be at first. Oh my gosh those first 2 weeks were so hard. I dreaded every time I would have to feed. It took a lot for Tate and I both to get use to it but I think now it is way better. I actually enjoy it sometimes (not in the middle of the night when i am dead tired).

I didnt realize that it would go quickly. During that first month it is really hard and I thought oh my gosh what did i get myself into. I thought I was going to be stuck like this forever, stuck in a rocking chair breastfeeding at all hours but it goes by quick and they get old and a little easier.

I didn't realize that all of my thoughts and everything i do basically is for my baby. It consumes you. I hear Tate cry in my sleep. Its like second nature to just get up and get him where as Norris is dead asleep and doesnt wake up. I think about him all the time and i cant imagine moms that have to leave there babies and worry about them while they are away.

Another thing was i did not think recovery after the baby would be so freaking hard. I had a hard time. I dont think i was being a baby but maybe. Well I had somethings go wrong that could have been prevented in my opinion but it is what it is (dumb doctor). It was very hard and i was very sore for a long time. I cant imagine recovery after a c-section.

I really do enjoy motherhood it just has it hardships that people tend to skip over and only talk about the good. I guess its good people do that b/c it would scare girls out of having a baby. I guess i didnt realize how hard it would be and it has made me appreciate mother so much more. Now on to some better news

Tate is 4 months old now and he is just so cute! He seems to be much happier now and seems to be doing better with his carseat! Thank goodness. Well he went to the doctor a week and a half ago and he was 11lbs 7oz but now he is closer to 12 lbs as of Friday. He was in the 3rd percentile for weight and 50th percentile for heights (almost 25 in. tall) and head circumference. He is a healthy boy. He hasnt gotten his shots yet. I am waiting till 6 months till he is a little older.I am not against vaccination or anything. I feel that they are so tiny and there bodies are still so premature that they need time to develop and grow before injecting them with vaccination. He still loves water and is still teething. No teeth have popped up yet but he is working on it. Some nights are bad and others are good. Last week he was waking up all through the night like 5-7 times. IT was hard but he is doing better this week so far. He is happy when he has me and i am playing with him. He needs constant attention. He loves chewing on anything and everything. He is starting to eyeball food. I am not sure if he knows it is food or if he just wants to still it in is month. I am hoping to wait till 6 month to give him food. Only moms milk for now. He loves to play with toys which i didnt expect. He loves being outside and watching the cars go by. He loves when there is a lot going around. He is very aware of his surroundings and is happy watching everyone else. He likes to watch Baby Einstein in his little bumbo seat. I put him in that and turn the show on and i can get ready without him screaming at me:) Tate is so cute when he giggles. He doesnt do it all the time like once a day for about a min or two, sometimes longer. He has a big gummy smile that i love. Well got to go and shower! later!